Why do I dread swimming so? At least swimming in a triathlon is dreadful for me.
Is it because I think it is going to be bad that it is bad?
Is it simply a matter of flipping the switch and thinking positive that will make it a better experience?
I don't know what the answer is. But one of the reasons I don't do more triathlons is because the swim is such a big deal for me. It is not that I am super slow (because I am, but that doesn't bother me), it is that I freak out in open water and those memories weigh me down increasingly during the weeks prior to a race. 1.2 miles in open water is just going to suck.
I mean, I know I will have a wetsuit on and that I would have to really try extremely hard to drown--but I still have an irrational fear. The dread is that I am going to be out there totally gassed and feel like I am not going to be able to finish. I will then start hyperventilating and then I will have to flip on my back while I trying to calm myself down. This has happened every time I have swam in open water in a race. It doesn't matter the distance of the swim in open water; sprint, olympic or Half IM. I expect it to happen. Which means that it will happen. A vicious circle it is.
The bike and run don't stress me. Water is my weakness just like Bruce Willis' character in Unbreakable. Water is my kryptonite.
I swam 2000 yards this morning and it sucked. I felt heavy in the water. No rhythm. No flow. It was a struggle most of the time to keep going rather than to get out and call it a morning.
At least the sun is out and I will have a nice ride into work.